Assalamualaikum,
Madinah Al-Munawwarah,
Makkah Al-Mukarramah,
Disinilah I rasa sangat dekat dengan Allah, sangat tenang, hilang segala kegusaran hati. Tidak ingat walau sedikit pun hal di tanah air.
Syukur Ya Rabb sebab berikan aku kesempatan untuk menjejakkan kaki di kedua-dua Kota suci ini. Kota Madinah dan Kota Mekah. The feeling of having to see Kaabah right infront of my eyes was so amazing. Rasa macam tak percaya and tak berkelip mata tengok Kaabah and also being able to stepped on the same ground just as our Prophet Muhammad SAW just indescribable. The feelings that cannot be spoken with words.
There are so many more things that happened that I simply
cant list everything down. Some too long and some that are too personal to
share. Yup, at first of course I had a lot of dilemmas before going. Questions like "Macam mana if I tak cukup baik?", "Macam mana if ada sesuatu yang buruk berlaku?" You know soalan tu je yang kerap bermain di mulut. At one point, from Madinah headed to Makkah time I dengan para jemaah dalam group yang sama sedang ber-Talbiah dalam bas, suddenly my tears fall. I dont know whats the feeling that I felt at that time. Fear? Excited? Only Allah knows.
But when I was up there, everything feels different. Its true what people say,
you cant explain it, you just have to experience it yourself. The people, the
place, the ambiance, everything was different. It was like everything was
pointed to one direction. In Makkah, millions of people worship the one and only Allah. In Makkah also, millions of people seek forgiveness from Allah. The feeling when you are alongside thousands of
people, all heading to the Masjid answering the call of azan. The feeling of
being so tiny and insignificant, yet at one with the rest of them. And yes, baru I sedar, perkara apa yang benar-benar penting dalam kehidupan ni. Ya Allah, siapa lagi yang dapat mengampunkan dosa-dosa hambaMu melainkan Engkau sendiri Ya Allah. Subhanallah!
Ive never considered myself a pious person. Yup, not at all. Honestly, I selalu look down on pious people. Astaghfirullah. Sebab bagi I, like I was better and more open than most of them, like they're missing out on a lot of things that people normally enjoy. Tapi apa yang I sedar, masa tu I lah orang yang paling lost gila. Sebenarnya, takde apapun yang tinggi menggapai awan dalam dunia ni yang dapat mengalahkan rasa ketenangan dalam jiwa. And paling penting tiada rasa cinta yang lebih manis selain cinta untuk Allah. The most important is actually realizing how much ure loved in return, it makes everything worldly seem so plastic.
For a sinner like me, its a miracle that Allah accepted me to be His guest. Alhamdulillah I was surely blessed with such opportunity and hopefully I can return to this Holy Land for Hajj and many many more Umrah, in Shaa Allah. In other words, I pasti akan ke sana lagi. I never thought I'd say this but grab the chance to perform umrah while you still able to do so. Thank you so much Ya Allah atas rezeki dan peluang ini.
Thats all I guess. Wassalam.
- AN.
