End of 2014

20 years that make a big difference in my life.

A journey that I didnt even expect. Throughout the year, I woke up to a very beautiful Allah's gift. Yes I admit, eventho sometimes most of them are not what I wanted but I am always sure that they are what I needed the most. As I see it now, my life has meaning and perspective. Ya Allah Ya Rabb, thank you for everything that You've given me. Allah let me feel and experience a lot of things this year especially when He has invited me to be His guest. He blessed me with a beautiful family and the people who have been present in my life. Allah made me whoever I am today. Alhamdulillah Im so thankful for everything. Most importantly, I can feel the change in me now that Im getting more matured. Matured in many things. I am 20 but more matured than many people twice my age. This life experience might have made me a better person.

I guess its not enough for me to express my gratitude here. Just sharing what I really feel, how this year brought me by far.

Now, Im looking forward to 2015.

- AN.

AN random #4

There is a place. A very strange place for me. Ive only been here for 10 days. New place, new environment, new friends and everything new la senang cerita. Im personally and physically not so comfortable being here. But I came here with my own reasons and intentions. Mentally exhausted thinking about all this. Hopefully I can survive to be here for the next 3 and a half years. Can I? Okay lets just think positive. In Shaa Allah, I can I can I can. They say, no one can go back and make a brand new start, and I turn the page maybe I'll find a brand new ending, In Shaa Allah. Please make a dua for me bcs Im about to start the most difficult phase of my life so far. May Allah make easy for my difficulties and install tranquility in my heart to find peace and happiness that I desire.

Amin Ya Rabb,

- AN.

Nothing can beat His plans

"Whenever I dont understand what is happening in my life, I just close my eyes and say Ya Allah, I know its Your plan. Just help me through it". Sometimes its hard for me to understand what He really want to happen but I always put my total trust in Him. Bcs only He knows what I really feel inside and He knows whats best for me and for my life. What has happened must have wisdom. I walk slowly while enjoying the beautiful journey of life bounty Allah SWT. In Shaa Allah, there is fortune for the patience. For every breath I took, thank you Ya Allah.

Indeed, Allah is the best of planners.

- AN