Bali, Indonesia

Aku lagi nyempat ke Bali Indonesia sebelum bermulanya sesi kuliah. Aku mikir Bali tempatnya indah, Eh malah aku lagi sebal banget kerna sering dibawain oleh tourguard ku ke tample. Ya aku gak hairan sama sekali pada teman teman yang berhaving fun di Bali dengan makei kain kuning ketika masuk ke tample dan berfoto. Ya bapak bapak, ibu ibu maunya apa aku ke tample?

Lagi satu pada fikiran ku, Bali ini tempatnya terlalu open sehinggakan babi panggang juga dijual di tepi jalanan seperti pasar malam. Yaa aku lalu disitu dan baunya begitu nusuk di dalam hidungku. Aku berdoa supaya bau ini tidak menjadikan aku seperti hidu dan makan benda yang haram. Aneh ya kerna pada pandanganku orang Islam juga terlalu ramai di sana. Hmm

Ya deh, aku ngerasa ini adalah first dan last aku kesana.

- AN.

Degree 2nd semester done

My semester break has just started and now Ive been at home since two days ago. Wow what a great relief! So thankful to my dad, bcs he was willing to take me in Melaka right after I finished my last paper which is Microeconomics.

Actually Ive been through a hard times when I was in Melaka. I couldnt do anything to avoid from the obstacles that comes into my life. Well, as a human being we couldnt run from any problems right..? Idk what to say, this is just semester 2. There are such a long way to go to finish the semesters. Started from the beginning, just because of one person in my group didnt bring the lappy, we've been forced to write 4k words in an hour. So crazy because we couldnt afford to do it in an hour, so we were only able to finish it only after 4 hours. Omg fingers strembling. But ahhhh I dont care about that anymore. What I really care about is myself. Myself was just so kind, like seriously? I dont wanna talk much about that, its making my heart really hurts when I think about that. I personally dont like to talk bad about others. Luckily I have these people that always helps me. Yea I guess all (except those people) Uni students had the same old things problem. And there was a lot more problems that I had gone through. Just enough. Sigh.

I hope next semester I can avoid myself from those people like that. Its super annoying! Im so done with Degree semester 2.

- AN. 

Rezeki

Today is the day that one of my cousin Abg Yap flying off to Saudi Arabia. His turn after me. Alhamdulillah rezeki dari-Nya yg pasti Abg Yap sendiri tak pernah sangka. Dia dihantar kesana untuk bekerja selama 3 bulan di Mekah and dalam masa yg sama boleh buat umrah banyak kali dan dapat buat Haji. Subhanallah. Akan ku kirim doa-doa darinya disana.

Bercakap tentang rezeki. Bagi I, rezeki ni sangat luas. Walhal untuk benda-benda kecil yg tak pernah kita sangka kita akan dapat. Walaupun kecil, ya itu tetap rezeki. Dulu mama pernah cerita, dia juga pernah ditawarkan untuk bekerja di Kota Mekah dalam kejuruteraan selama 5 tahun. Tapi mama tak pergi sebab nanti abah takde kerja dekat sana. Kalau mama terima tawaran tu, mesti I fasih berbahasa Arab and acah-acah orang Arab. Mungkin.. tapi mama tak terima tawaran tu. Mungkin dah jadi takde rezeki?

Rezeki.

I selalu baca, orang yg tak berpelajaran tinggi jangan disangka masa depannya gelap. Orang yg waktu sekolah dia hanya kelas bahawan tapi dapat jadi pemilik syarikat dan pekerja-pekerjanya pula ialah orang yg berada di dalam kelas yg teratas dan bijak pandai sewaktu di sekolah. I selalu perhati, zaman sekarang orang menilai seseorang tu dengan pointer, sampai setakat mana dia belajar itulah yg orang pandang. Orang berlumba-lumba nak anak pandai. Yela siapa je nak anak tak pandai kan?

Haritu I tak menang contest tag and win dekat Instagram win duit raya RM1000. Siap buat solat hajat. Tapi Allah lebih mengetahui. I tak menang pun contest tu. I bagitahu mama, I sedih sebab tak menang. Mama cakap, buat apa nak sedih dah tu bukan rezeki. Mungkin ada benda lain yg Allah nak bagi. I redha. I tak pernah kesal pun untuk apa yg I minta selama ni tapi tak dapat sbb I yakin Dia maha mengetahui apa yg selayaknya untuk I. Mana mungkin Dia tak sayang I sebab before ni pun Dia dah bagi banyak benda yg I tak pernah sangka I akan dapat lebih-lebih lagi untuk sampai ke rumah-Nya.

Umur and kesihatan yg baik tu juga rezeki dari-Nya. Ni semua pinjaman, ada orang diuji dengan rezeki kaya raya, ada orang diuji dengan kemiskinan dan sebagainya.

Ya Rabb, terima kasih untuk segalanya.

- AN.

Review Fair & Lovely part II

So lately I've been searching for a skincare, just wanna give a try out to BB cream. At first, I bought a Cathy Doll Magic BB cream SPF59 PA++. Wow memang magic. It makes my face looks so glowwyy the whole day and the SPF is high too. But, Idk I think Im not suitabled and comfortable with it. Then, I changed to the second BB cream which was BB Baby Cream SPF30. I firstly did the research on how it works on others face. The testimonials well you know lah kan gempak sangat and makes me really wanna get it asap. So I got one! SADLY, its really opposite me. My face became dark and dull than before. I was so scared la kan.Then, I wore back F&L, in about 2 weeks Alhamdulillah kulit I jadi better balik. Suddenly, I tergerak hati nak check the expired date dekat F&L, yela bcs I still wanna wear it lama lagi kan, cream pun banyak lagi and I dont want to waste it. Sayang sebab banyak berbakti. Then I tengok balik expired date dekat dua BB cream yg I pakai before, omg its already expired on 2014. Mann now its already 2015. Then I terus buang! I thank God for that. I think I mcm taknak halalkan my money on that. Those sellers were really not honest in selling.

Im still wearing F&L right now. But at the same time Im still looking for other BB cream. Finally, I already found one! Hehe tak serik. This time before I buy tu, I memang tanya la betul betul. Everything that I needed to know, I asked them. I have the right to ask them anything bcs I am the costumer who wanna buy that. So, hello to my Beaute BB cream SPF25 PA++! Okay, this one really suit well onto my skin. Tak cair bila kena panas and berpeluh. I just love it. Boleh la I bawak pergi Melaka nanti. Let see how it goes then.

Oh ya! Haritu tiba-tiba muka I jadi bintik-bintik merah and ruam merah. Gatal, pedih and perit sangat bcs makan seafood byk sangat. I didnt use my Beaute BB cream to cover it, but still, I used F&L to calm my face. Alhamdulillah in 3 days my face pun dah okay. I need both, Fair & Lovely for my skincare and BB cream.

For about 9 years with Fair & Lovely, I personally think that this cream is just like my medicine. Bila apa semua yg I pakai tak elok, I will return to this Fair & Lovely. Well, it depends on someone too.

Thank you Fair & Lovely for the gift. I already got it! My face is my priceless thing that I couldnt buy anywhere. Allah has created me perfectly fine and beauty so I need to take an extra care of my face and myself. Everybody should too :)

Tiap hari sayang.

- AN.

Review Fair & Lovely part I

"Fair & Lovely tiap hari sayang" - Iklan

I am very pleased to dedicated my appreciation to Fair & Lovely. Based on my experience, I've been using this F&L since I was in standard 6. I was first using this when I got too active in sports until I found my face looks so dirty and got a very uneven skin tone. Idk who suggest me to wear it, but I think I am the only one who suggested to myself. So started with F&L facial wash, I've tried a week then a week after I bought the Krim Muka. I wore it everyday until I found my skin became clean and bright. Yea, of course I was so happy! So since then, I teruskan pakai sampai I di sencondary school until now, in my university life. I really satisfied with F&L.

But, something I dislike with F&L with my current study place. I'm studying in Malacca just beside the beach. So the weather is freaking hot and the heat makes my face constantly sweating. In fact, I've always getting trouble with F&L on my face bcs its always faded and melted, and its became so cakey. So I cant properly protect my face from the UV and the sun rays eventho it has SPF15. Its also gave me zero confident level to talk infront of others. So so disappointed with it. Yea, It kinda weird tho bcs before this, when I was in secondary school, I sangat aktif berkawat tengah panas and still used this F&L to protect my skin from the harm UV but overall was okay. Idk, what happened this time.

To be continued.

- AN.

Degree 1st semester done

Alhamdulillah Im so grateful because Ive finally done with my first semester. Still remember how Im struggling to get into the new environment and new friends when I first came here. I always telling myself how can I be here. Well, everything is different now. After all, Im in love studying here. I sangat bersyukur because Allah gives me a chance to further my studies here in Malacca. So much new things I learnt during this 4 months.

The classmates, class rep, lecturers all is well so far. Yea I have two good friends that always being here with me. One of them is my roomate and one of them is my neighbour-mate which are my classmates too. These two girls has a different characters which I think its good to have them around. Mind blowing when I sit with them. Going to the class, study, eat, sleep, lazy all the things we do together and the three of us are from KL. Haha not being "racist" here but most of my classmates are Johoreans. 

Alhamdulillah everything went well. There are still a long journey to go. In fact, I still have 7 semesters need to be done. I know that there would be a challenges, obstacles, ups and downs that awaits and I bet there is no easy way to success. I have to workhard for my parents and also my goal. My life goal.

Khadijah. Its my new name, which I introduced myself to someone (AA). Idk how it happened but I do love that. Im happy.

- AN.

Allah's perfect timing

"Ko bila nak kahwin?"

"Ko bila nak dapat anak?"

"Ko bila nak masuk U?"

"Ko bila nak dapat kerja?"

Kawan saya pernah berkata, "Everything has its own perfect time with its wisdom"

"Semua perkara ada masanya yang tersendiri, dengan hikmahnya yang tersendiri"

Kita tak perlu nak tanya "ko bila lagi?"

Jika dia sudah berusaha, kita hargai usaha dia. 

Tak perlu nak pressure lebih-lebih. Elakkan daripada menjadi penyebab orang lain sedih.

Jadilah penyebab orang jadi gembira. [Aiman Azlan]

Quite frankly, Im often faced in this situation. I guess everyone has been in that situation too. Why do people have to ask such questions? Ye, saja-saja je tanya just for fun. Especially when balik kampung for sure makcik-makcik rajin akan bertanya soalan wajib macam ni. Honestly, bila kawan kawan yg tanya kita macam okay je takde rasa apa sangat but if relatives yg tanya tu bunyi dia lain macam sikit. Sentap kot haha. Tidak ke diorang tahu rezeki, jodoh ajal maut semua dah ditetapkan sejak dari Luh Mahfuz? Everyone has their own rezeki yg Allah sendiri telah tetapkan cuma cepat atau lambat je.

So basically when people ask me "bila nak kahwin" I will say the most cliche answer like people normally do, "belum ada jodoh" or "lambat lagi". Actually takde sangat la orang nak tanya that kind of question to me bcs Im still studying kot. But Ive been asked by them with one of the questions above. To see some of my friends and cousins who've got what they wanted in life, they've got what they wish for and I was like yea Im still here sitting in the dark and couldnt even see what my future will brought me. But when I think back, I am so regret with what Ive said before. Why do I need to say that? Why do I need to say that Im sitting in the dark while the sun is always shining during the day and the moon is always shining in the night? Whyy? If the time could be turned back, I will never ask why.

It happened to me around September 2014 and I guess I shouldnt have to share that. Yea maybe about the upu result? Haha idk. But what can I say here is, the wisdom that Allah gave to me was simply superb. The timing was super perfect and I can feel it until now. At first, what always goes on my mind was always "why". People may not know what Ive went through bcs they werent in my shoes. But as for myself, Im incredibly happy with what has been given by Allah. A journey that may differ from my friends, but thats what has been ordained by Allah for me.

Life's journey is still long (If Allah wills) but I can already see what might come. I may get scared of what Allah has laid for me in my future, but for everything Allah has written for me, I have faith in Him. Who am I to question Allah when I know only Him has the power to all the things around me. Sooner or later, it will be worth it. Percayalah, Allah has a perfect timing for everything. Learn to wait on Him. Everything happens for a reason and it happen within its own perfect timing. So be patient.

P/s: I realized, Allah never made me feel sad and down. But the people around me that often makes me feel that way. For that, I distance myself away from those I dont need.

- AN

Lil bro turns 16

So just to make it short, to the one and only adik that I have, you're my spiderman, naruto shipuden and my otaku. I know we always fight over things, we might not always get on but Im sure you know that I love you. You're my bestfriend Ive ever had adik. I hope we can make mama and abah proud and happy and kakak will always pray for ur success though.

Sorry couldnt be there on ur special day. Haha not that special day I guess its just as the same day you had to go through it. You have to go to school, study and kena bebel dengan mama. Haha I miss to hear that. Lol

I know ur not going to read this or else you might even not know Im doing this entry special for you. Oh no no not special its just that Im so bored right now so here it goes. Well he actually didnt even know that I have a blog.

Happy 16th birthday adik. May Allah bless you always.

Ur beautiful sister,

- AN.

Blessed Friday : Abah's Birthday

Alhamdulillah, although it has been 3 days passed in 2015, but it has been a good start for my new year and new me perhaps. Today is a very special day for us as a Muslims to celebrate the birthday of our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW. A very special day indeed for a very special man in my life too. Bcs my dad got the same birthday with the Prophet Muhammad SAW. Subhanallah.

Abah, you're my hero, my loyal pilot. You're the best abah in the world. Eventho someday Im gonna meet and found my own prince, you will always be the king of my heart. Ure always in my prayers abah. Thank you for everything and I promise I will make you and mama proud. I love you so much.

Forever be ur daughter,

- AN.