AN Random #9

This is the day that I fell in love with you. Its true on people say that, love happens when you least expected. Ia perlu datang tanpa isyarat, tanpa kata. Tapi aku tahu apa yang aku rasa, sama seperti apa yang kau rasa. Walaupun selalu dipersoalkan.

AA and I are currently counting down the day. May Allah ease everything for us. 

- AN.

Appreciation post : Intan Syafiqah

Babe,

I still remember the day I met you.

I started to get to know her closer after a year of studying. Entering semester 3, we were destined to stay in the same room. From there, our friendship slowly became the talk to the class and gradually we became bestfriend. At first, she had her own friends. Im not sure what really happened to them but what I am sure of is that we get closer each day.

Intan. She's very happy go lucky person and always had a smile on her face. She likes to spend a lot of time and activities in college after classes such as silat. Babe, why you so rajin? Still remember when she got back from silat with her black silat uniform and then sit down infront of me. Meanwhile, I was lazy lying down on my bed while playing with my phone. Tak penat ke minah ni. Only with her, I was so diligent and like to go out. We went to the pasar malam MT by bus. We didnt mind being hot, sweaty and tired as long as we were happy and able to buy our favorite food.

In semester 4-5, we were once again destined got the same room. I was so happy. We were always in the same group for assignments. There were a lot of things we did together. Berpindah randah from Taman Kelisa to Rumsis Tun Fatimah level 4 to Rumsis Saidina level 4. Omaigadd I cant forget the memories. How exhausted we were. Dengan kena sound lagi dengan Makcik guard but still so happy and laughing to tears.

Semester 8. Alhamdulillah we rent the same house. This semester is the last and most exciting semester for us. We didnt have a lot of classes but we came out a lot. My weight has risen dramatically this semester cos she always asked me to go to Mcd at 12 am. I have to blame her regarding this haha! Other than that, we're always fighting. No matter when we want to study, eat, sleep or shower, we must be dissatisfied and always fighting. Idk why, it has become our habit.

She helps me to become a better person. We always plan our weekends and enjoy together.

We played together, studied together, laughed together, sometimes cried together, did grow up together, made incredible memories together and finally when four years of university life came to pause, we bid goodbye and parted our ways. It saddened me so bad. There are so many good things about her that I cant simply list them all.

I hope our friendship will remain like this forever. Love you babe! Xx

- AN.

Appreciation post : Faizatul Ameera

Latipah,

I call her B and she call me B too. I dont know when we started to call each other B cause it was just so sudden. She's a very kind and a nice person.

For me, she's too good. She just likes to do her own thing . I cant even remember a time when she had something unpleasant to say about someone. That was one of many valuable lessons I learned from her and have made apart of my life. She seemed to know everything. Everytime I had a perplexing question I knew she would know what to tell me. Although her answer was so annoying and unreasonable, but that is her, the friend who always makes me laugh.

She was always calm, patient and even tempered when faced with people who were less than pleasant to be around. I learned from watching her deal with people that being nice never fails. And I learned from watching her deal with the situations life would present that as long as you gave everything you had to give and never quit, you could never be beat. She is so trong to handle the situation.

Fyi, we have never been in the same rumsis since semester 1 till semester 5. Bout how can we be so close? Its bcs she was my next-door neighbor at our rumsis. Started in semester 6, we decided to rent the same house with some of our other classmates. Gosh, she was the one who took me on a bike ride around Taman Gamelan with our corporate shirt and skirt lol. Eventho we were not stay at the same house in semester 8, we still sit together in class. We went to Putrajaya from Melaka together and did silly things together. We still keep in touch up till today. Well, what else to say about her? She's the best. I didnt have any problems with her.

Oh if anyone ever wonder why I called her Latipah and Nani as Markonah is bcs thats our nick name. Not to forget me as Sarabanon.

I love you B. I will never ever forget us three. There are a lot of things to do together in the future. Xx

- AN.

Appreciation post : Nani Syazwani

Markonah,

The first ever person that I met during registration day in year 2014. We didnt say anything. But I was just wondering why this minah just sat down and didnt move forward to register. I just ignored her and continued to cut down the line and enroll immediately.

She's a super extrovert person while Im kinda an introvert person. A shy shy gittew. So in this case, many people around me wonder why we are so close. They said 'how come syiqin boleh kawan and sebilik dgn Nani'. Lol I cant even answer to that. Given stark differences in both personality and style, I swear Nani is soo pretty and stylish. I still remembered she went to the class with a different shawl style everyday until some of our classmates especially boys called her Pochong haha! We love sharing skincare product that we use, makeup and fashion.

Well, every friendship has an issue right. Sometimes we become so isolated till some of our classmates notice that we were no longer going to class together. It started in semester 3. So this eventually caused issues. Im not sure if the feelings at this point were completely mutual. We were on two different pages and didnt talk about this bcs we didnt want to ruin our friendship we had going.

But hey, day passed by! Eventho we've been roommate and housemate for only 6 semesters, that doesnt mean we aren't close anymore. We still hanging out, buka puasa together with Meera and so on. We took a lots of pic together during our convocation day. We decided to exchange gifts for each other in conjunction with our graduation day.

I love you bestfriend. Only we know whats going on between us. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for giving me medicine when I cant even get out of my bed. Thank you for always taking care about me. Most importantly, thank you for coloring the beautiful memories of our school days which we have done foolish things together, skipped class together, ran away from reading the Yassin and sat down on the stairs together with Meera. Xx

- AN.

Convocation day

Saturday, 7th September 2019.

Alhamdulillah, officially marked the end of my university journey. I'd been looking forward to this day for a long time. As in previous years, graduation ceremonies were held in Seri Negeri, Melaka but not this year. For some reason, it had to be held in my own university which I think made it even more special. 

First and foremost, I would like to thank Allah for giving me strengths and opportunity for me to study in Kuim. Next goes to my family, lectures and friends who always give their supports and motivation for me to finish my studies.

Besides, during the day Im so happy to meet with all my coursemate after 9 months apart. At the same time I felt sad too because Im not sure whether all of us have the chance to meet again. So sad that I dont even have time to talk or take picture with some of them due to all of us were busy with our own things.

Now that its all over, Ive had time to reflect and really take it all in. It was such a surreal day. Its a day that I will never ever forget, I feel so lucky that I was surrounded by some of the most important people in my life who made the day even more special especially my abah, mama and adik. I swear I love you all so much!!

My time at university had its ups and downs but I wouldnt change it for the world. It was the best and most stressful 4 years of my life so far. Im still grateful as I was surrounded by such supportive people and made some lifelong friends.

Appreciation :

My family (abah. mama & adik), AA, my coursemates, my lectures especially Tn Haji & Pn Hamidah, my sem 8 housemates. I love you so much! I wouldnt be able to do it without all of you.

- AN.

About feelings

As we've grown closer over time, you have become my go-to for nearly any situation. I know that you will always have a wise thing to say, a great recommendation and a different perception to whatever situation Im struggling with.

You truly are one of the sweetest people I have ever met AA. You have a way of making sarcasm sweet, which I didnt even know was possible. Being selfless comes so natural to you and I freaking love you for that.

I love you for all that you are, for all of our memories, all of the fun times, all of the times we've supported each other, all of the times we've grown. Even all of this is only just for a moment, but Im pretty sure we've really become a part of each other's journey and I wouldnt have it any other way.

In this life, I have always believed that in every step of our life Allah brings someone into our life with His hidden good reasons that we will never know and never understand. And you, you are one of them. 

Its all about feelings that are always changing. Feelings that are always dubious and confusing to both of us. Despite all this, please know that I love you so much AA. 

- AN.

Keranamu

Keranamu,

Hatiku berwarna merah jingga,

Tanpa kamu aku tidak akan melupakan segala-galanya,

Kamu,

Adalah mimpiku, dan mimpiku adalah kamu,

Segetar cinta yang membuat semuanya begitu bahagia bagiku.

Poem by : UAA

- AN.

AN Random #8

The cat above is my Lily

What the hell is wrong with me today? 

Today I walk around The Curve. Oh yes my favourite mall. So long story short, just wanna share what has happened to my brain today:

Tealive vs Chatime

I went to Chatime, after arriving at the counter:

Me : Give me Signature Brown Sugar Pearl Milk Tea. Large

Cashier : Sorry miss, Signature Brown itu tealive. Ni Chatime

Me : Oh hehe sorry sorry. Pearl Milk Tea satu

Cashier : Okay miss

Victoria Secret vs Bath and Body Works

When at BBW, Ive been standing there for so long searching for my fav perfume until:

Salesgirl : Hi miss, how may I help you?

Me : Hi, Im looking for Pure Seduction. Where is it?

Salesgirl : Oh Pure Seduction is Victoria Secret miss. We dont have it here.

Me : Oh hehe sorry sorry I thought Im at VS hehehe ~

Salesgirl : Hehehehe ~ ~

Me : Okay I tengok yang lain jap (Me jalan slow slow sampai pintu keluar and terus masuk VS)

Salesgirl : Tengok I dari jauh :)

Mc Donalds vs KFC

I have setup my mind that I wanna eat Double Cheese Burgah. So I was already inside of KFC and:

Me : Uhm Double Cheese... (while looking at the menu)

Cashier : Aaa yes..?

Me : Uhm bagi Zinger Chicken satu alakat

Cashier : Makan sini?

Me : Take away ya :))=

So yeah I dont know why my brain isnt functioning well.

- AN.

My first job

Alhamdulillah, I officially just got my first ever job.

Frankly, I never thought that I would get a job real quick as soon as I finished my studies at the end of November last year. Ya I know, some of you will say I took 1 and a half month to secure my first job, its not that quick well for me its kinda good tho that I think at least I never felt unemployed at all.

A lil flashback:

I still remembered when I was still at the Holy Land (Madinah), I just got a call and email saying that I was shortlisted for an interview at an investment holding company at Bukit Jelutong as HR executive. Idk how to react at that time, how do I go there to Bukit Jelutong Malaysia by the time I was away in Saudi Arabia. But I know Allah has a way better plan for me.

Back in Malaysia, I started to apply for a several jobs. A day after, I got a call from this one retail company and told me to come for interview. Back home, I got a call from the same company saying that I succeeded in the interview and have to report duty on 11 February 2019.

Okay la let me tell ya, Im currently working at one of the most famous Bookstores company in Malaysia (you guess) as HR Exec obviously in HR department. Im actually happy bcs I secured my position as HR same when I was at Schindler as HR Internship. Alhamdulillah.

Im overcome with happiness. This is my start in the world of work and now Im determined to do my best. Wish me luck! To my beloved friends, I wish everyone the best of luck too. Dont ever lose hope and always trust in Him.

Blessed & Thankful.

- AN.

My first car

Yeay Alhamdulillah,

Eventually after so many years, after so long of waiting, after so much of patience, my dreams of owning a car has been fulfilled. I remember the year I turned 18, my main focus was getting my car license. I signed up for my driving test the very first day I could and I passed.

There were so many times in 2012 when I was at A-Level, Ive tried to ask my parents to buy a used car for me so that I can be more self-sufficient. But my parents dont like it and dont believe in used cars huhu sad sad. So, I occasionally just drove my mama's car to go anywhere like pasar malam ke just nearby my house area bcs its a manual car hehe.

7 years later (now), I finally got one. The car is a brand New Perodua Myvi in advance variant. Im so in love with the colour so much. It is a greynite grey in colour. Aahhh I still cant believe that Im owning a car. Eventho it is just a Perodua brand, but I still can be proud of. Thus, the most important thing is I should be thankful to my parents. I could've not get it if its not because of them. But presumably I could've own a Honda Jazz if......... :p, but nope Im so grateful for this. Its good to own tho.

Thank you Allah for a good start of my 2019. More good things to come, In Shaa Allah.

P/s: Writing this entry not tryin to show off but just wanting to share one of the moments that I can be grateful throughout my journey. 

- AN.

Umrah Journey 2019

Alhamdulillah I have just got back from umrah on 19/01/2019. This is actually my second umrah where I was previously invited to be His guest in 2014. If you guys wanna know my first umrah journey experience you can just click this.

My feelings were exactly the same when I first came to the Holy Land 5 years ago. I was in awe at the sight at the kaabah. What a sight to see! Ya Allah this is what Ive been waiting for. The last time I was infront of the kaabah on my last day in Makkah, I still remembered one of my prayers was "Ya Allah jemput aku lagi, aku akan datang sini lagi". And here I am right infront of the Holy kaabah. Eventho it was my second time, I was still so nervous and filled with excitement or rather afraid and immensely happy. With all these mix emotions I had at that time, I was drowned in a lot of thoughts.

What can I say for my umrah this time is totally different. I got so many opportunities to approached and touched the Holy kaabah. I was able to get into Hijr Ismail for more than 5 times. Allah make it easier and smooth for me to makes my long duas infront of the Holy kaabah, multazam and in Hijr Ismail. It is so miracle when there was an Indonesian man who told me to pray and he protected me from being pushed and hit by the crowd. It was actually so difficult to even make a 2 rakaat prayer in Hijr Ismail with so many crowd but then I managed to do it. The most saddest part of me when Ive completed my tawaf wida'. My tears start rolling bcs I really dont want to leave this place. But I just had to and in hope I would be back here again.

Leaving Makkah with a heavy heart but I was looking forward to visiting the city of Rasulullah.

Madinah Al-Munawwarah also the place that Ive been longing for so long. Here is the only place where I can be close to Prophet Muhammad SAW. It was so sad to heard the story of our Prophet about how great his sacrifice is. I was able to get into Raudhah twice where I didnt get many opportunities to Raudhah during my first umrah. Allah has given me a long time to be in Raudhah this time and Im so grateful. Alhamdulillah.

There was so many miracle things happened in Makkah and Madinah but I just cant simply list everything down. I was so lucky enough to go with my family and I cant explain how special the 2 weeks were. Well I dont think there are words to explain it. I feel like staying there forever bcs this is the only place where I feel really calm and I can totally forgot about dunya. In other words, my life is just focus to the one and only Allah.

Oh ya, I was immensely happy to met my friend, Abdul Muthalib. He's a technician in Schindler. Bumped into him since we were at KLIA to Jeddah, Makkah and Madinah. We left on the same day on 07/01/19, have boarded the same flight, same hotel at Plaza Makarim Madinah and returned to Malaysia at the same time. It was a pleasure to see him and we had a talk together while waiting for the flight at the Madinah Airport. Just wow.

Subhanallah Alhamdulillah thank you Allah for blessing me with all the good things.

*I will never stop missing the blessed lands where I wish to return again and again with my loved one's. Aamin

- AN.

Here for you!

Should be on this date, I will be flying off to Saudi Arabia to perform umrah. I only have a few hours left to fly but I still wanna make this entry special for someone.

Happy Birthday Umar! Another year has gone by. I know its been a while since we met. There are so many things that I wish I could give you this year and you would deserve all of them.

You know what, you are just so amazing! You are such a down to earth soul with the biggest heart and one of the funniest people I know. But you are so annoying. You always forget almost about everything in this world. Although you are younger than me, but I can see that your maturity is much better than mine. Your maturity is the same as your height lol.

Wtv it is mar, I wish all of the best for you, for us, in this upcoming year!

- AN.

January baby(s)

A year older a year wiser.

Today Im celebrating my birthday! Alhamdulillah I am so grateful to Allah for still allowing me to breath and to see my family in front of my eyes. Im beyond grateful. I dont ask much but Allah gives me more than I deserve.

Today my family and I went to The Curve (obviously our favourite mall) to actually to celebrated our birthday. My dad’s birthday was on 03/01/2019 while me on 05/01/2019. See, Im the most beautiful and precious gift that my dad ever got from my mom 25 years ago :p Ya its all from Allah. So we went to makan besar and my dad bought me a present. Not only me, my dad bought my mom and lil bro a presents also. Thank you abah, we didnt give you anything on ur special day. But I hope someday I can give anything that my parents wants even thats not what they’re hoping for.

My lil bro is also a January baby. Lucky him bcs this year he will celebrate his birthday at somewhere in the world. Im sure its a Holy Land. He’s so handsome but I always wonder why he always asked me a tips on how to tackle a girls. Bro, I really dont know about that. Please learn from ur friends kay. Just want you to grow up healthily and successfull not only dunya but akhirah also. May Allah send you someone who will love you unconditionally. But before that lets make mama and abah proud and happy first okay. I love you so much adik!

So we’re the January babies! Whoever celebrating their birthday in January, we’re gang bcs we’re beautiful and handsome lol. May Allah bless us all.

- AN.

Doa selamat 2019

Alhamdulillah,

Baru sahaja selesai majlis doa selamat di rumah saya sebentar tadi. I feel so good and happy for the blessed start of 2019. One of the big reasons majlis doa selamat ni diadakan is because my family and I will go to the Holy Land to perform umrah.

To be exact, ini adalah second time majlis doa selamat was held at my house after 10 years. It was a freaking long long time kan. So I almost forgot how the atmosphere was when making a majlis or makan-makan at home. Previously, if kami nak buat doa selamat kami akan buat dekat masjid yang dekat dengan rumah je. Tapi tahun ni we decided to buat dekat rumah dengan harapan agar ia lebih barakah and thus the most important is dapat rapatkan hubungan silturrahim antara jiran tetangga since my mama ada group tadabbur dia. Orang kata duduk rumah tinggi-tinggi like apartment condo etc memang tak bertegur dengan jiran kan? Well its true I might say. Frankly speaking, I pun tak kenal sangat jiran sebelah rumah I hatta bertegur pun tak sebab buat hal sendiri je but tak semua la. But this is not what Im tryna tell ya.

Back to majlis doa selamat. Okay since my mom ada group tadabbur dia, my mom ajak semua kawan-kawan dia datang rumah untuk baca yassin and doa selamat sebelum kami berangkat ke Tanah suci. Kami hanya tempat catering saja and my mom ada buat backup mihun and I goreng tempura semua. It was fun to see all the kids makan and macam-macam la. Seronok sangat la melayan tetamu sebab selalu I yang jadi tetamu je hehe. Tak jemput reramai pun rumah kecik je yalls.

So okay la tu je kot I rasa untuk setakat ni. Berharap 2019 adalah tahun yang paling baik dan semoga Allah lindungi keluargaku adalah keluargamu juga eh tak. Semoga Allah jaga setiap orang yang kita sayang.

Amin Ya Rabbal alamin.

- AN.